Ive accquired a hobby...since all that happened between us...It is to couple watch... Its a bit wrong and i think these couples sometime find it rather strange or irritating to see me looking at them constantly...but i cant help it...It just reminds me about lots of stuff...i get really envious seeing them displaying affection towards one another...other times i feel really sad on the inside and there are moments where it puts a smile on my face when i reflect on the past...

It makes me recall the past memories and i reflect upon them...trying to come to a conclusion...that the agreement we had was the best and only decision...other times...i just really hate it and i wished you were right next to me now...but i have to grow up and stand on my own two feet... Talking to you now a days just make me feel like depending on you..but i know i shouldnt...its not right...so hard to let go...

Im being very open about my feelings with you...i dont know why i am...but the words,emotions and feelings keeps pouring out of my lips..i feel really desperate by being so honest...and the silly thing is when u read out my post to me...its really funny and light-hearted..HAHAHAHA...but so serious and heart-wretching when i type out my thoughts...im the emo girl :D

Talking to you now again...has put a new beat in my step...but as the days pass...and our conversation wears out slowly each day...reminds me of the past...where we got nothing to talk about on the phone...but i dont want to hang up..cause i wanna hear ur voice and be right next to you...

Talking to you on the phone...is one of the two occasions that i feel connected to you...(this is why i hate silence) the other is when were out alone...just cant seem to feel connected to you when were in a group...feel like ur really faraway...but thats because ur always busy...and i find it awkward to talk to you sometimes..i dont know why...i think im really an idiot...

Telling you everything i feel like saying but just dont have the guts to tell it to you in person...so im sending this to you virtually...

enjoy,compliements from the emo girl.Hope i didnt freak you out.One day im gonna show u that ive matured and am able to depend on myself :D watch me world

12:18 AM
Bridget