Monday, September 22, 2008
the past weeks with you have been so perfect up until today..while we were on the phone...and i was complaining that you cant do it ..and you went that " your not my mother,wife or gf"i was so upset...and it brought up the conflict that i have within myself...of who am i..whats gg on between the 2 of us...and its like im doing nothing but just wasting my time ( im not, i know what im doing...i did think over carefully..and i am willing to wait...even though its 2 years...)it got me wondering...did i even matter to you at all ? and all those moments we spent together...were they wad my frens warned me about...flirting..toying with my emotions...no...their wrong they dont know wads going on they cant see the problem...or the transparent barriers between us that were able to see..stupid...if they call it...i asked you.."who am i to you?"you said " a very good close fren of mine"it seems as though ive reached my peak...i cant climb any higher than im already at...im gonna remain there steady and strong...but tonight...let me cry my heart out...and feel the Lord's arms tightly around me in a warm embrace to let me know..its alright..everything going to be alright tmw...
9:25 PM
Bridget