Sunday, August 31, 2008
SLASHsmokeDRINKmorphineCRY
suicideI cant do anything but cry....my body is a temple of God...i cannot destroy the value and importance of someone who has created me with so much TLC..but it hurts...vey badily...im trying to be brave...i really am...but im just so dependent on him...that i cant do anything without thinking of him..
shopping used to help...as it made me feel in control of myself...but now it doesnt...my thoughts keep running back to him...without him....
I SMILE.HE IGNORES.I STARE.HE HIDES.I TALK.HE ANSWERS.I WELCOME.HE RETREATS.
I talked to thinn about it...she thinks im over-reacting...and that i shouldnt let my thoughts run while...she thinks...that i shouldnt behave the way i am...she says its in their nature...that their so fickle...i disagree...until now i dont think ur like that..ur different...ur not like those guys..IM SURE...it must be my fault..
9:34 PM
Bridget