3 more months they say,approaching they tell me..
terrifying its seems,nervous i am..
IM NOT READY..
and im not pulling up my socks,instead im cutting corners..
(just felt like using some idioms)
Im finally getting CHEMISTRY tuition..
LOL..dumb..
it cost 50 dollars an hour...im trying to find another..MADNESS..
And apparently my mum asked my 19 year old cousin to come over to help me too...gosh i was so embarrassed...when she mentioned it...i didnt know why...
I mean i can get along with him...just that it felt so so WIERD..

i cant help but imagine,whats to happen

9:05 PM
Bridget

I WANT THIS


8:28 PM
Bridget

Gosh,i ate alot today...i dun knw why but i did..I think maybe i have an eating disorder..like when im super sian/sad/happy...I EAT...

Today,was more like eating to fill my cravings...and im having a BIG feast later again...FAT :x WIERDS...i mean i know there something wrong with my eating habits...but their not say really unhealthy...for example..i will eat recess,skip lunch eat dinner..i think i do this 2 to 3 times a week and my recess is at 11? yeap...

its alright right? i mean...i still make sure im full...just some unnecessary binging at times..yeah...k..now that thats sorted...and out of my system..

whose up for some FOOD? HAHA

8:16 PM
Bridget

8:36 PM
Bridget

Today we had a talk on abortion and we were shown a video on the process of abortion and what happens to the dead feotus.The procedure was cruel and inhumane.I could never see myself aborting any child i have,it was simply too painful.Yet,people still seek abortion.

These unborn children are simply chucked into rubbish bins not even providing them with a proper burial.I guess,people fail to realise that these foetus are alive from the very moment the egg was fertilised with the sperm.That life that was in that female's womb actually had dreams and hopes for the future,just like we do.That baby may have had aspirations like we do to be a teacher,a singer or just something great.

Yet do we even give these babies the opportunity to dream?No, we simply crush their hopes by making such a foolish and irresponsible decison.This decison that kills any possible aspirations that they have.

See it from this point of view,not giving a baby the chance to live is as though you are limiting the baby from having any freedom to dream.Dreams which are created and thought up so simply by us are not even possible for these babies.

Those who seek abortion take it as an escape route from getting away from a mistake that they did previously or to avoid future problems because the babies are physically or mentally disable.I don't see any of this as a good enough reason,they are all selfish reasons thought up just to get yourself out from your irresponsible mistake.
ABORTION=MURDER

food for thought: is it alright to abort a down-syndrome baby?
My answer: God has something GREAT for each one of us.

10:35 PM
Bridget

BIOLOGY WAS HORRIFYING
MATHEMATICS WAS TERIFYING
CHEMISTRY WAS EXPECTED
ENGLISH WAS UNDERACHIEVED
HISTORY WAS ALRIGHT

Im a humans person,haha...but that doesnt man i should not strive to do well in those that im not doing well in...infact i should work doubly hard... :D

Hopefully i do well for Lit...So far feedback from the teachers have been
NEGATIVE NEGATIVE NEGATIVE
yeah...and its supposedly my best subject...i was feeling so stress and nervous yesterday after recieving results...i really wanted to call..i really did...

But i restrained myself,as i did not want to be needy.I see myself capable of managing my own emotions of handling my own stress...i shant weigh u down with my nonsense..im not worth it...and there far more to ur life than me..

I dont want to be seen as those weak,frail girls...i want to be
INDEPENDENT and STRONG.

yet still i want ur attention everyday..

8:32 PM
Bridget

I think there something wrong with me...i get agitated at the slightest situation this days...like not being able to take the car to church...with frens...wierds....blame it on *the time of the month* HAHA Usually i dont PMS,i guess people's mood/character/attitudes do fluxtuate..

I wish i could lock myself up inside my room,then people would not have to put up with all my madness..and yeah...stay happy...cause my mood affects ppl...cause i talk alot of crap...which irritates ppl...IM AN ASS HOLE....
Speaking of Ass Holes...

watched HANCOCK today...the movie was alright...since i had already read the entire synopsis online unknowingly and spoilt the entire movie for myself...besides that we were sitting at second row and my neck hurt,head hurt and i felt like puking...*GROSS*

But the story was SWEET...different from other movies...and the mum..was really realy PRETTY...LOVED her hair and eyes..

this week was fantastically tiring and amazing with u by my side..


8:46 PM
Bridget

I think i did not blog the entire week ?
yeap...was busy with DPA stuff and preparing for Litreature debates...

for DPA...im just trying to get a place in SP for security as im afraid i wont do well for Os...as judging so far im gonna fail chem(even though im improving and for maths...i lost alot of marks...)Kinda pressurized sitting between Day & Thinn cause both of them got A1 for chem and i failed...and thinn was fussing about getting one more mark..it sort of affected me...but i know they didnt mean it...Thinn kept apologising...I understand everyone just wants to get the best grade and we are all so competitive...this just wanna make me work harder!!

I really really want to go to lasalle,cause thats where they really majour in drama instead of teaching other stuff like psychology...but its so hard to get in :C
Even if i manage to get into SP,i will still audition for Lasalle next year...

As for Litreature debates...i have been preparing for it for the entire week...such that it has taken up all my time and left me with absolutely no time to study...yeah...i wasnt really going all out to win...i just wanted to present a good case that would make a good debate...yeap...we were up against Catholic High...prestigious school....but...WE WON! haha...although it was not much of a surprise to me as the moment the first Cat High guy started speaking..i knew we had them in the bag...and i was smiling (feeling cocky)HAHA...

This week was ours....

8:41 PM
Bridget

i cant stand it...this is freaking boring and so totally not me..so im just gonna add in just a pinch of the past...just a tiny bit...no harm right? right?

ok...

Funny how we think ( ok, i think) that were the centre of attention sometimes,that the whole world just revolves around you and one day when you suddenly make up from that fantasy dream you've been sleeping in.You realise that there more to this earth than just you.( actually, you don't just simply realise in a matter of fact you walk right into a bloody wall and it hits u hard-VERY HARD)and it hurts,it hurts because all your believes that u had suddenly just disappears and fades into the darkness.

Although, i may seem self-centered but if you saw it from my point of view,i was a victim too, a victim in delusion and the pain was no child's play.
It hurt right to the very end.

8:14 PM
Bridget

SHOPPING!
was great today...had fun looking at quirky stuff..
and had fun wid BESTIE
LOVE PQ for being so AFRICAN AMERICAN
haha

all pimplies came except CELEST
I MISS U CELEST!!!

I BOUGHT:
1. strawberry shortcake file
2. hair band ( i look bimbotic )
3.UNNECESSARY FOOD

Didnt spend much today, rather proud of myself...HAHA..

*thinn this kind of blogging sucks..i cant take it..its so
BORING!!!

9:56 PM
Bridget

new blog, font kinda screwed for the moment..hahas..hmm..wad to blog about?
*This is kinda diffrent from the past..trying to have a fresh start..dun wanna revert back to my old ways..

DREAM PLAN

1. L1R4 : 8 PTS
2. Get into LASALLE- musical theatre
3. ACE the auditions

OR

3. DPA into Singapore Poly (DRAMA & PSYCOLOGY)

really worried about O levels because i know that my prelim grades are really not ideal at all..the safest and best bet is actually to make it through DPA.I can still major in DRAMA after that.I still got my trinity to worry about...so not ready for it..haha..SLACK

10:40 PM
Bridget

10:32 PM
Bridget